I’ve been super duper lame coming up with titles lately. I’m listening to ballet pop music again…still see the dancing in my head…and these words are dancing too! I can’t wait until I can get started with ballet, but not until September or October. Have a few things to finish up first… and I don’t know how this event planning and my Jewish classes / events will coincide with lessons. You’ll never hear me say this again, but… it’s been pleasant not having to go to rehearsal every night. Even though our theatre is on a month long vacay, I don’t think I’m going to even attempt to commit to anything the rest of 2019. I’m enjoying the heck out of having time to do anything and everything I’ve missed out on….plus all the Jewish holidays are coming up, and those are more important to me than anything right now.
I have a positivity journal now. Where I write down ways to become and stay successful in life along with positive quotes and anything goal/dream oriented. Oy. I am crazy. I literally have a notebook for every different subject. Now I’m making a binder for almost everything. Now I need to find a small journal and write in there what I desire – like a dream board sort of thing. I’m becoming so focused here.
I’m seriously so ready for fall, I’m so ready for our new year. I keep wanting to take a picture of a pumpkin spice frappuccino or latte and hashtag whitegirlstatus so bad! Ha. I also kept thinking about New York, snow, ice-skating and seeing colorful lights absolutely every where. Only once do I want to ride in a carriage in the middle of the city while it is snowing and looking at lights during the holidays. One day I will have that. Just not now. Because it’s making me very cold just thinking about the snow. Brrrr.
These almost midnight thoughts have me pondering why I even exist on the planet. Like, what’s my purpose? Will I ever find out? Am I becoming who I am supposed to be, finally? What do I have left to do before… destiny? How many years left do I have to do what I need and want to do? All the questions. And more.
Heading out of here to make it one goal-oriented weekend.
Karen Maeby (Ahava)
EDIT: After writing this last night for today, I wake up with an email asking for me to SM the show that has rehearsals during the holidays. We plan, G-d laughs. What do you think my answer is going to be?